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[14 Aug 2007|02:01pm] |
is it just me.. or do boys just not have the same effect as they used to? do they just not try any more..??
don't get me wrong. i'm not coming out or anything.. but i just feel like i can't ever find a boy that i like who likes me the same amount that is willing to show that he cares.
i mean you hear from all his mates that he's nuts about you.. so why doesn't he show it?
what's with this whole 'playing cool' thing anyway?
pardon me if this makes no sense whatsoever, but i happen to be hungover/sleep deprived, and experiencing an awful headache.
the point is. there was this one boy who proclaimed his love to me, [by love i mean like.. but love sounds better eh?] by getting up on a table in a bar and telling everyone just to get my number.
there was this boy who played me one of my favourite blink songs on the guitar, because he liked me.
there was a boy that cared about me enough to stick his fingers down my throat and make me sick when i was really wasted one time.
yes. not the most romantic thing in the world. but that's not what i'm talking about. i wasn't romantically involved with this guy. he was just a fucking good friend.
he seems to have changed as of late.
so have all boys.
what happened to overblown romantic gestures?!
i know it's lame. but girls like that kind of thing. no matter how embarassed they pretend to be.
WELL.
i want a boy to show that he cares.
this boy that i like. i can't like him. i hate that i like him. i hate that one minute he's there.. and then i just don't hear from him for days.
it sucks.
not because i want a relationship with him. i don't do that. we all know this.
but i just want to know that he cares. you know?
i just want some kind of fucking consistency, is that too much to ask?
this boy has managed to hold my interest longer than most others. i don't have a clue what it is about him.
maybe i'm changing? maybe i'm growing up. slowly but surely i will be able to commit to someone, someday.
maybe it's happening right now.
also. there's another boy. and they're both the same type.
this type that i try desperately to stay away from yet i always manage to fall for. every time.
the whole alpha male, 'i'm so good looking it hurts' self assured.. assholes.
i should stay away from everyone at this point, i feel.
until i get my grand romantic gesture.
yes. we'll see how that works out..
[priya won't have sex for a very very long time, that's how]
mah. this has turned in to rambles of the incoherant nature.
good day to you all
xx
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[18 Jul 2007|05:36pm] |
okay, so i'm leaving chippenham on sunday, but i don't want to.
i want to stay here with the wonderful people.
but ian is also leaving, so that's wonderful person gone.
but kun is coming next week.
and alex is still here.
and the otherssss.
oh my god. this is awful.
i can't choose.
i don't know what to do anymore.
i feel like crap.
but i had an awesome night last night.
in which i got "engaged" to two boys.
who kept jokingly trying to make me choose between them.
but truthfully, i couldn't.
i think i like them both.
but that's not good.
they deserve better.
mah. *sad face*
but what a great night it was.
and what a great time i've had here.
i want to stay.
but i gotta sort out uni.
and work.
and phone bills.
and bank.
GAHH.
xx
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[11 Jul 2007|04:24pm] |
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Hello.
So, yeah, i haven't posted in a while, but that's because there's so much been going on.
I really like it here, and i've been ill for the past couple days, but i reckon i shall go down to the pub today.
I want to do some drawing and i feel like sitting in the beer garden, on my own and doing some.
There's a gig on, on saturday, and i can't wait for that.
Also, mills may be coming down, within the next couple of weeks, to see me.
Yayy.
Uhmm. I dunno what else there is to say. I should go get ready. Bye bye bye xx
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[05 Jul 2007|03:00pm] |
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So, I was just on the phone to Millie. We were talking about the old days.
Even though we didn't know eachother then, we knew some of the same people and sorta had the same lifestyle.
Except she'd take stupid amount of drugs. And I would drink stupid amounts of alcohol.
We realised that we were so young when it all started that, seeing that behaviour now, in people of our age, makes us think that they're immature.
But if we'd started drinking at the legal age, would we be like them?
I dunno.
But back then, what started out like harmless fun, changed people that used to be so wonderful.
I remember having so many people i could count on...
Now I don't speak to half of them.
Gah. It makes me miss being younger, too.
That carefree condition, when you knew you'd have your parents to fall back on. And the excuse that we were just kids.
It's funny because there's about a year of my life that I don't particularly remember.. and I long for it.
People aren't the same anymore. All the incest between our groups, it makes you feel that none of the feelings that anyone had towards you were genuine. Or the feelings that you thought you had for someone, were quickly replaced by feelings for one of their best friends. it's all a bit fucked up if you ask me.
But that's how it used to be.. and i long for that, too.
Especially that tight-knit group of friends. I dunno what happened to make it all fall apart.
I wish we were the way they were again.
I dunno why this is all coming out now, perhaps 'cause i'm leaving soon.. but I am really going to miss this.
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[04 Jul 2007|11:35pm] |
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Today I did nothing.
Yesterday was fun, though.
My sister came home and we went down to the pub. I met some nice people.
It was a bit weird, though, 'cause it's the first time i've been "out" since the smoking ban. We had to keep going outside.
Yeah, so we hung out at the pub and we got a little bit drunk, though i wasn't as bad as my sister.
Me and Kitty played against the Bisto Brothers and won.
MODIS RULE!!!
Then she, in her drunken state, decided that everyone was going back to Bistos. I decided to be a killjoy and went home.
It's not 'cause i'm getting old or nothing.. it's just we had all made plans to do something today, 'cause none of us (apart from Ash, the poor boy) had work the next day.
We thought we'd go down to Bath and I wanted to be able to shower in the morning.
But yeah, that plan fell through the second Kitty convinced everyone (other than me - her wiles don't work on me, for i am her sister) to go back to the Bisto's and drink more.
She came back really late today, so i just sat around and communicated with Millie through various forms, the whole of the day.
Mum had made enough food for the whole family, and i pretty much ate it all.
Haha.
Ermm. What else?!
Err, we just watched The Goonies, 'cause Bisto hadn't seen it before.
He hadn't LIVED.
Yeah, and i thought i'd come down and update this.
But I am extremely tired, for some reason - all that bumming around perhaps...
Byee xx
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[03 Jul 2007|01:21am] |
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I DON'T WANNA KNOW! I DON'T WANNA KNOW! I DON'T WANNA KNOW! I DON'T WANNA KNOW! GO! GO! GO! GO! GO! I DON'T WANNA KNOW! I DON'T WANNA KNOW!
I've been downloading/listening to/watching fuck loadsa Blink songs today. Live stuff, which is like. the best, yo.
It's like 1.23 and i'm ridiculously happy.
Today I did absolutely nothing (except help mum destroy my room so she could put a bed in.)
I just annoyed the hell out of a bunch of people using paint on Messenger. The only people who were able to draw back were the two Josh's.
And got some really rare blink songs.
And.. and..
Yeah. I had a great day.
I spoke to mills earlier and she described this scary film to me, scene by scene, it was terrifying.
I reckon she's asleep, now. Sucks, cause i really want someone to call while i smoke.
ON AND ONNN, RECKLESS ABANDON.
sghsghfgjkdfgh.
I spoke to some swell people on MSN today. I haven't used it in bloody ages, so i've forgotten who half the people are. Haha.
I'm so out of the loop it's insane.
I also feel i'm lacking social skills on this thing. I'm just irritating. 'Cause it's easy to be. Especially with this paint thing.. you can just draw at people 'til they block you.
Sounds like my ideal night in...
Anyhow. I think i will sleep soon.
xx
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[02 Jul 2007|01:48am] |
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I am officially bored. but i'm watching Haunted - the episode with Mark Hoppus in it.
It also stars Jack from Lost. Crazy.
Erm, so yeah, i figure i should tell you about my week as it was so eventful.
On tuesday, i hung out with Harry. We went to college to hand in our Locker Keys and i had some work to do.
Wednesday, me and Mills decided, as it was my last wednesday in Leicester for a while, that we'd go to Mosh. We went for a few at Odyssey, but mills wasn't drinking that much so it was basically me downing a bunch of drinks while she slowly enjoyed one.
Beccy left. Dane and them lot for Mosh shortly afterwards. I don't remember when/how we did, but eventually we ended up at Mosh. And at first it was completely dead. but then without me realising it got proper full. It was the last Mosh wednesday for a while, i heard.
I got extremely drunk, and it was fun from then on. I think.
People kept telling me that this boy i used to see wanted to "fuck" me. [how romantic] But I still feel weird about that whole thing, and still think his ex would get upset with me so i'm not going there.
We left and millie asked if i wanted to come back to hers. I said 'no i should go home, i have an exam tomorrow'
i forgot my stuff in her bag, and after getting half the way home in a cab i realised. The reason being that the taxi man was hilarious. he just kept talking. i thought i'd text millie and tell her this and i couldn't find my phone.
I, then, proceeded to yell "STOP THE CAB!"
The crazy man actually did it. We turned around and tried to catch millie who was walking home.
It was all in this surreal panicky state, in which neither me or the cab driver knew where we were going, just the general direction we had to end up in. We almost went down two one-way streets.
It was almost as exciting as a high-speed chase...
The cab fare was already up to £5 by the time we got to her, and so i gave him the money and jumped out. Exam Shmegxam, i'm sure i must've thought.
We got some chips and decided to sit out front and have a deep and meaningful right there and then.
Hilarious. [I will say that word as frequently as I wish]
We then went inside, and we bitched talked for AGES.
Next thing i know i'm waking up, and i've missed my exam. It doesn't matter, though, cause it's for Maths, so i can re-enter myself without it affecting my grade, i suppose.
TINY VOICESSSSS.
Yeah, so that day, me and millie just monged out for the whole day. Satch came over and I felt i should leave as I felt third wheel-like. I saw my friend Candy on the bus. I think I rambled at her. Y'see, instead of unloading when i'm drunk, i've recently started doing it when hungover. I feel there's no excuse for this.
I got home and wanted to pass out, but my cousin's husband (that would make him my...) came over from Thailand, so we hit the pub in true Modi fashion. I ate a starter and decided i could take no more. I ordered desert and left. I dunno why but i was really upset after that. I went home and watched Supernatural. There's nothing better than two hot brothers fighting supernatural forces to lift your spirits. I fell asleep.
My tooth had been sore all week, so i decided to call up the dentist. I went in and he fixed the problem. You know all of this. I then went to college to hang out with Harry. I got home pretty late, and had to start getting ready for work straight the way, i couldn't go to Millie's like originally planned. I got to work, and felt like crap. Martin was in a bad mood, and had completely forgotten that i'd told him that i was going away next week and couldn't work. Meh.
Work went by so fucking slow. It was well annoying. But eventually i got to Panic with Mules.
Considering i hadn't been drinking, i had an alright time. The atmosphere in there always makes it seem as though i'm drunk. It's not a lie!
Anyhoo, we left for Mills' house (we being Me, Dan, Pete and James) as we were walking down the street James and Dan started play fighting. We continued to walk, cause it was cold. We eventually looked back to see what the hold up was, and there was Dan in a pool of his own blood with James hovering shiftily. Apparently Dan was pushing James and James was pushing back, but eventually got bored, without warning Dan, so Dan went face first in to the floor. It sounded/looked painful. I had no idea what to do. Not only was my friend hurt, there was blood everywhere, and i'm real squeamish, so i had to keep my distance.
Luckily, we had a fairly sober Millie with us, who took care of it. James insisted he use a plaster.
Dan bought up the good point that he couldn't use it on his swollen eye, bloody nose or fat lip (yes, all this from falling on his face. he also cut his chin. OWNED.
We went back to Millies and Dan got cleaned up. Pete washed us up some mugs while telling hilarious stories. His wild gesticulations sent foam flying everywhere. It was all just very fun to watch. We made soup, cause that's the only thing i could really ingest.
They all left 'cause Dan was in pain. I fell asleep in ALL of my clothes. Grr. How annoying.
Anyhow, in the morning i woke up, and i was so uncomfortable. I went upstairs and climbed in to Millie's bed. When we got up we went 'round all the shops in the area trying to find things for me to eat as a celebration that i could eat solids again. I bought some cupcakakes. They were delicious. We watched the end of a film called "Mission to Mars" which was really creepy, cause i have a fear of being lost in space. It can't actually have been that bad as it was being shown quite early in the day. Millie gave me a bowl of cereal, and we just seemed to be eating non-stop and watching random things on the tele. There was this one show called "The best ever worst auditions" and it was basically a show about the auditions on shows like X-factor and Pop Idol, with just people humiliating themselves. It was freaking hilarious.
There was this one man, "Bob the Tray" he would dance about carrying a tray in one of his hands and ocassionally hit himself over the head with it. Hahah. Priceless.
He is infact mine and Millie's hero.
Anyway, i had to get home to get to work, but 'cause i had my CDs and it was raining, i got a cab home. I got in, and had the longest shower ever. I was late to work. but work was fun, to begin with. It eventually got busy, and i was in a bad mood for a while. I swear, if some of the regulars weren't in that night, i would've gone insane. There was this man who got real drunk, passed out, had chewing gum in his hair, had a cock drawn on his back, his possessions strewn in the area around him, and when we finally (i mean FINALLY, after many, many attempts) got him up his trousers fell down to 'round his ankles.
I felt well bad for him.
For a while there, I thought he wasn't breathing. He had his passport in his back pocket. I checked his name. I don't remember it: but i'm crap with stuff like that.
Apparently when he got outside he started to cry 'cause he was so lost. Bless.
These men were (apparently) trying to speak Gujerati to me. But I don't even understand it properly in it's purest form, so when drunk british men start speaking it at me, i don't see how there's any chance that i'm gunna understand. They said they were saying "you look hot" but after they slowed it down (and repeated it a bunch of times) I realised they were saying "that bird is nice" which, i guess, works but wasn't what they thought they were saying...
Anyhoo. Me and Becs went to Firebug after work to have one last drink together. It was alright, but then i just wanted to get home. A song came on that upset me a bit. Mregh-- i don't wanna talk about it.
Anyway. Yeah, so that's pretty much all, leading up to my last post.
xx
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[01 Jul 2007|10:59pm] |
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Hey. i'm a bit confused at the moment.
I just got to Chippenham and at first i really didn't want to leave Leicester. but now that i'm here, it's not a big deal. Although i was looking forward to watching my Blink DVD and i realised i hadn't got the disc. I reckon Kun's put it somewhere, in that annoying way he does.
I'm gunna miss him, though. Chippenham is his place. What the hell do i do without him?!
I think i'm gunna be a recluse 'til my sister comes back from that festival. The people here are cool, an' all. It's just i need someone to latch on to, to become comfortable in most social situations.
I was gunna go down to open mic tonight, but i had some reading and some Blink listening to do, so it's not like i had a crummy night.
I dunno how long i'm gunna stay here, depends how long i can put off all the stuff at home. I know there'll come a point where i'll have to come home, to sort out loans and decide what uni to go to, and pack, and say goodbye to my friends, and all that stuff that i don't want to do, but i'll be damned if i don't procrastinate for as long as i bloody can.
argh. i should enjoy the time i have.
i was WELL looking forward to it, earlier this year. infact, weeks ago. what the fuck has changed?! it's so frustrating. hmphh.
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Ugh. i've calmed down now. Had to slap myself in the face a couple of times.
A fight just broke out in the library. It was bloody hilarious. It was really slow and everyone just watched for a good few minutes before reacting. So many things could've been broken, if it was infact a REAL fight. but no. it was hilariously slow. and over something stupid, i presume.
Good times.
The dentist said I can only eat soft food, sporadically - when i like to eat foods of every consistancy, constantly.
I can't drink - well. we all know that's pissed me off.
I can't smoke.
And the pill won't work to it's full potential, while i'm on my meds.
Also "avoid any unnecessay talking, excitement, exercise for the rest of the day"
WHY DON'T I JUST STOP LIVING?!!!
Meow.
I do go on a bit.
xx
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[29 Jun 2007|02:29pm] |
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EDIT. [I had a bunch of stuff written here, but i thought it made me sound like a prick]
At the minute i have a fat lip, cause i've been to the dentist and they always seem to go crazy with the anesthetic, even if it's just a check up. I can't drink tonight, because of it. And for the rest of the week. So my two last nights left in Leicester are just gunna be shit. Yes, i know, i rely too much on 'the sauce'. If it helps, i've come to terms with it.
But yeah, i'm a bit confused at the moment. Got cold feet about going to uni this year. Going away for the summer, and considering it's my last living here in leicester, i feel like i shouldn't. But I do wanna hang out with mother and my sister. And.. and.. the people of Chippenham are swell. I'm sure i'll have a good time.. I just. I dunno.
fgjdflk giohdfgjfdgjidfgjfdgdfjgdf.
There are people here. I don't want them to forget me. I don't want to forget them.
People always say they'll keep in touch. I know i've said that lots of times, and just. haven't. It's hard, y'know.
I can't think about this.
xx
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[26 Jun 2007|05:54pm] |
Okay.. so i was gunna make a new account - infact, no, i did - but then i decided to come back to this one, right here. The reason i made a new one was so i didn't have to bother explaining all those things that i wrote about all those months ago, that're no longer part of my life. I'm not the same person as i was back then. And I hardly see some of those people anymore.
I realised i don't have to explain anything..
I can just start again, and do my best to keep up with this thing. Besides, it's more for my venting needs then it is for others to read. I think i know like. 2 people, who look at this thing on a regular basis.
I'm gunna be living with my mum over the summer, and she lives in a small town, and so i'll have a bit of free time on my hands, i guess.
I can't wait to go to Chippenham. Things here are getting too much for me, and although i'll miss all my friends, there are some things i just want to run away from for the time being. I'm going for around 6 weeks I think. and then i'll come back for the end of the summer. Sort myself out a bit. And then i'll be off to uni. Wheyy!
I think living somewhere far, far away would be too much of a big step for me, so going to Birmingham, i feel, is ideal. [Man, i type like such a prick :p]
It's not too far on the train, so if it does get too much for me, i can always come back to Leicester for the weekend. I am not gunna let the fact that it's so close ruin the experience for me, though; I want to learn to take care of myself.
I'm so used to people just. doing shit for me, that i never learn to do things for myself. I reckon i'll be good at rationing money for food, but i dunno how i'll cope with not being able to go out all the time, or buying new CD's/Clothes. I guess that's what a loan's for...
Yeah, so, anyway. This is my new[ish] LJ. I'll try to keep updating, Hope you enjoy.
xx
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[26 Jun 2007|03:23pm] |
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[26 Jun 2007|03:17pm] |
STARTING OVER.
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[28 Feb 2007|05:23pm] |
yeah. okay, so i have forgotten the rest of the story i was telling the other day.
i'm sure it can't've been that important.
I feel i must tell you something, though.
well.
so.
uhm.
yeah, i've been disappointed lately.
in just people that i know and am close to.
it's nothing new, i guess.
the times that we live in. (hah)
and the fact that we don't really have high enough standards for friends.
it's more for convenience sake.
i think this is pathetic. but i can't change it.
i hate change. and i have gotten used to be being betrayed.
also seeking revenge. but i'm trying to stop that.
cause i think that's pathetic too.
i think my college friends have taught me alot. they really don't know.
they have never let me down. they're such good people. they've made me somewhat better myself. *tear*
yeah. anyway. it doesn't matter what this is regarding. i don't care enough.
i've gone numb to it all.
maybe things will work better this way.
blah.
something good that happened - i put the G - string (ahaah.) back on my guitar, and bought a strap and am working on playing while standing up.
i also cleaned him and stuck a couple more stickers on to make him look shiny and new.
he's so pretty.
heh.
anyhow.
i'm off.
thanks for listening.
also. remember kids - take care of your colon and your colon will take care of you.
xx
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[19 Feb 2007|11:52am] |
alright. so.
this week, has been incredibly eventful - let's see if i remember everything, yesh?
You all know i went to chippenham on Tuesday.
The next day, i hung out with mother for a bit. she took me to her salon and pampered me. which i have missed, so very very much.
then i met Amber (kun's piece of ass) and we went for a coffee, and her mate dropped me to mum's.
i spent the rest of the afternoon bumming around, and then the evening watching a bunch of McFly videos (hey. shut up.) my sister-cat the arrived and we started getting ready to go out. if you know us, you'll know this is a long process, and we didn't end up leaving the house 'til 10. we figured, as Chippenham is such a simple little town, the pubs would close at 11, so we had a swift drink or two. we sat with Chris (Nick Frost) as he was the only person I knew there --
alright, i am stopping this for a brief minute to show you two comments i have just recieved:
"Just wanted to apologize for being out of touch. My internet's been down for a while due to moving. I hope all's well and drop by my page anytime.
Damon"
I have no idea who this is.
and :
"I have decided that you are nine parts treacle and one part glitter. This is science, so it is unquestionable. Furthermore, I still love the Alkaline Trio, more than most people in my life, and would probably marry them all if it was legal and I liked other people's willies more than my own. Adieu. x"
haha. I love Andy, he's proper hilarious. proper.
anyhoo.
we ended up making friends with a bunch of localers. that all knew my brother cause the populations like 40.
i swear.
they were all real nice, and easy going, and one of the guy's who worked at the place, and he said we could have a lock in.
he also made me and one of his friends have a 'draw off' though, i don't remember the outcome.
i believe it was me, but i haven't recieved either a trophy or a certificate to prove this.
me and my sister took it upon ourselves to get completely trollied and hope that these strangers were capable enough to take care of us.
over the hours; 10 pm - 7 am, we became like family.
i will update this later.
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yesterday i finished doing "college work" at 6.30.
I was really using the school computers and printers to print out lyrics from every blink album ever made. i managed to convince them for a class. or atleast they stopped caring.
anyhow. I got home and watched Dawson's Creek.
I'm gay for that show. I can't miss it.
Well. I did today. but that's cause i'm in chippenham.
nothing fun happens here.
I got the train pretty early, but it managed to take 5 hours to get here. I had to change a good few times, though.
and i knocked a man/woman over the head with my bag.
i did not apologise. i laughed.
i'm fucken awful.
anyhow. I got here, and hung out with brother for a bit.
his friend came over who reminds me, so much, of Nick Frost.
He's so funny.
He reads the sandman and a bunch of other stuff, so i got on with him quite well.
I met kun's girlfriend, and she's really sweet.
and then we went to the pub, and the people were all really nice.
one of the guys wrote a lymeric about me, as.. that's what we all seemed to be doing - i don't know how it came about - but yeah, it was hilarious.
but yeah, well. i guess i did have fun here. i will be returning home on Thursday, for the make out club.
It feels like i haven't worked there in bloody ages.
I know none of that was interesting. but i don't care. it's 1 am and i have been travelling, and i am tired, and our bloody checkers game won't work.
xx
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hey.
i'm gunna start blogging on here, again, i reckon.
i've been reading the entries below, and, god. so much has changed.
practically everything.
it's quite upsetting really.
but yeah, watch this space.
xx
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.. so many interesting things happen in my life.
Not always good things, but I count myself lucky..
Think about all those people that have no social life.
Yeah, they'll probably get better jobs, and better educations - for the time being.
But I think charm and people skills takes you a long way.
And if the majority of our generation - also described as 'the future' think that is true [and i'm pretty sure they do] then maybe education won't be everything when we're in charge.. You know?!
is this just stupid rambling?!
I always feel so fucken pretentious when I try to articulate silly thoughts of mine.
I feel like I'm one of those people who convince themselves they're intelligent, and have a hard time accepting they're not.
If you think any of that up there is just waffle, then sure, you can tell me, or perhaps, if you're not a decent human being you can laugh behind my back, or perhaps, you can discuss this with me, or.. if you 'nothing' me then just.. continue.
You have to bare this - rather large, i feel - factor in mind; I am slightly hungover. And i am sad.
Not sad, as in the pathetic way [well. maybe, but I don't feel the need to point that out] but I am upset.
Things have been going so swell in every aspect of my life, xept one..
I miss seeing him around. And talking to him. and I don't think he cares. And if he does, he's not showing it. And I guess i'm not too.
And I guess.. I deserve it. I am not at all good with things like this, as everyone knows, and once i have someone that I think I can totally rely on, or maybe just have fun with, I go in to self destruct mode and just ruin it all.
You always hope that you'll find someone who knows exactly what to say.
Someone that - if they in some rare case did make a mistake, and hurt you - that they'd know exactly how to fix it.
Some grand gesture; like in a movie.
But it doesn't work that way.
Maybe because American's have a lot more confidence.. and are incouraged to speak their feelings from a young age?
Maybe because life's not REALLY like that. And that teenagers are too self involved to know how to fix something they have done to hurt someone that is supposed to be close to them, but they have no idea.
Maybe because it just wasn't meant to be. Whatever.
Who cares.
Another notch to add to my bedpost.
Hurrah, what a great life I lead.
And I look so fucking humble.
Blah, blah, blah.
I don't want to talk about this anymore.
xx.
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[06 Mar 2006|07:32pm] |
Okay, so it's Monday night.
My back hurts..
'cause I slept funny.
I realised I haven't blogged in a hell of a long time..
There is so much to write about, but you know I can't be bothered with that stuff.
I moved house.
It sucks.
It fucking sucks.
I got a new phone today.
I also got told that If I don't start working, I'll have to repeat this year at college. *fuck up*
I went to Free Fall Felix's launch gig last night.
Was pretty fun. Yip.
They weren't all that good, though.
Me and Tom were discussing it, and we all know they're a talented bunch of lads..
But I much preferred SG.. and not just 'cause of 'the brother factor'.
To What End [better known as The Gays] had to stop half way through their set, 'cause of Tom's throat infection.
Bless.
Uhm, me and Dan had gun wars.
Gayboy video taped FFF, awh. I thought it was well cute.
I proposed to two boys.
Steve found me a pack of cigarettes and gave them to me.
Blah, I can't be bothered with this whole 'forming sentences' thing..
I'll just say this:
The weekend was pretty damn fun.
Maybe we'll Fan Club it up tomorrow, aye?
xx.
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